Liberation

Today I feel so liberated! I said things that I had been holding back for so long. They finally came out and you know what?

I FEEL AMAZING!!! (: (: (:

There is a sort of relief in my heart, a happiness in my mind and peace in my soul (:

Just another day in the life of SavannahEmily (:

Easier Said Then Done

Worry is an emotion that seems to confuse them mind and heart of the person that is experiencing it. We all have worries about all kinds of things. I know I worry about a lot of things because I am afraid of the consequences when some other don't think about them.

I am worried now of the impact I am having on my significant other's life. I worry that I am influencing them for not the best sometimes. I would like to think I am not but when other's tell me indirectly that I am; I start to worry. I want to influence his life for the best, not bring in things that will have negative consequences.

Now don't get me wrong, I am not a bad person. I think sometimes though that I think differently then others. I think that leads me to make "wrong choices" in the eyes of others. I don't want to bring problems to others and their futures.

The worry is eating me alive sometimes.

Drag your thoughts away from your troubles... by the ears, by the heels, or any other way you can manage it.  ~Mark Twain

The Day of Love

So yesterday was the Day of Love (:

I have always loved Valentine's Day even when I was single because Valentine's Day lets me express my romantic personality and it not be odd (:

This year I got to celebrate Valentine's Day with my wonderful boyfriend. I spent 45 minutes getting ready, like a typical female. I wore a sweater dress because I didn't want to be under dressed or be over dressed. It was a beautiful cream color (: I curled my hair, I must say I have perfected the way to curl my hair (:

I opened the door and there my boyfriend was with roses and he looked so FINE! I was seriously impressed and couldn't stop staring (: I found out that he does enjoy dressing up, I was so shocked! He does a really good job of dressing up. I think I might die at banquet then (;

We ate at Las Palmas and then went to Providence to see The Eagle. The Eagle is a warrior/gladiator type movie. I was in love; gore, fighting and half dressed buff men; there is nothing better (;

It was such an amazing Valentine's Day (: I have never had such an amazing Valentine's Day (:

My boyfriend said a quote that night that literally made my heart almost exploded of happiness (:

"You know we couldn't live together before we got married."

(:

Growing Older

I was talking with my mother the other day and we were talking about how the older we get, we find things that didn't bother us when we were younger bother us now. I find traits in people that I've known forever to now really bother me. They never used to bother me before. I wondered to myself, "Have I just over looked these traits all these years?" The answer is no. My mother told me that when you get older you develop your own personality and then you define who you are. Slowly but surely things that did used to bother you, start to.

I know this from experience.

I look around at my friends and think about how much we have changed. How much we've experience. How much we've grown out  of that "nerdy glasses and frizzy hair" stage. We don't just do things because everyone else does them. However, that means sometimes our personalities clash sometimes.

My friends are all very different people. Olivia, is the one I've known the longest. She's the type that speaks her mind, sometimes that gets her into trouble though. Catherine, the quiet one that is always in deep thought. I truly believe she thinks on a higher level than others. Amanda, the loud, tall athlete. She is always the life of the party. Brittany, the shopping guru who has the strongest relationship with God I've ever seen. Mari-lynn, the Lover. She loves people with all of her heart and wants what is best for them, even if it causes her pain. Then there is me, Savannah Emily, the laid back one who also is very opinionated.

Like I said, we're all very different. We all started out that same but now have transformed into very different people. This causes clashes in ways of thinking and doing. I know we all have our flaws in personalities. I know I personally am very opinionated so that makes me feel like I need to give it, when I don't, sometimes.

Being different isn't always a bad thing, it brings new light into a situation. Sometimes though we need to step back and think "How am I going to affect this person by saying or doing this?"

The Start of Something New

So today I found out that my girlfriends have been blogging. This was news to me! They said it helps "vent" and talk about things that are bothering them. The curious person I am, felt that I needed to check out this world wide phenomena called "blogging." So this is the start of something new. I don't know how often I will blog, I don't even know if people will read this. I guess like my friends said, this is a way to vent and just talk about things that seem to interest me.