These Are My Confessions

1. I get suuuuper paranoid at night, especially in the dark or outside or both.
2. I'm insecure about how I look.
3.  I used to be a liar.
4.  I've been in love with 3 different men in my teenage life.
5. I never cheat on my significant other.
6. I'm always the breakup-ee
7. I can't sit still.
8. I get distracted easily.
9. I believe you can see inside someone's soul by looking into their eyes.
10. I hate being alone, it scares me.

"I don't have to impress you anymore, I've already got you."

That comment is the comment that most men think.

They swoon over women during the "chase". They dress up, say sweet comments and bring you gifts. It's sweet.

Once the "chase" has ended, it's like a mask is taken off.

Sometimes they still try to be sweet but I don't think it's the same.

Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing. I just like a little bit of spice in my relationships.

Take me on a surprise date, bring my favorite drink or even the same thing of telling me I'm beautiful.

It's not just men though, I will admit.

I think we just get comfortable. We're not as worried about what our significant other thinks.

"I have to impress you even more now that I have you."

I think that should be the quote on couple's minds.

The Day of Meds

So I've been ill for about the last 2 weeks. It sucks.

I went to the doctor and she isn't sure what is wrong with me. She drew blood to send it off for tests...

I cried a WHOLE bunch. Not my strongest moment.

Well I'm on 2 different pills and they make me SUPER DUPER hyper.

It may be dreary outside but I feel like it's radiating sunshine (:

Today's going to be awesome (:

Turmoil in the Soul

My heart is in turmoil.

Help.

The End.

Turmoil in the Soul

My heart is in turmoil.

Help.

The End.

What Happens Next...

I had a lovely night Friday (: Joel's birthday party was that night (: I saw Little Red Riding Hood and it was fantastic (: I never usually get attracted to actors like in a serious way but when Shiloh Fernandez walked on screen....

Saturday nearly killed me. I was so stressed out all day. I snapped at people and was freaking out. Thankfully things were resolved QUICKLY.

I had to write an essay today for a Vet Program this summer. I would be staying a week on UT campus and working for about 5 a vet near where I live.

I don't know though....Mom is pushing me to do it because I would have to have done this if I want to get into the college vet program at UT.

I don't know though......I don't know if my heart is in it right now.....I secretly hope that I don't make it but at the same time I want to prove that I can.

Sometimes my pride cause conflicts. Should have seen that coming.

The Day After the Weekend...

So today is Monday....I think school should be outlawed on this day.....

Well SETC was this weekend (: Wow it was fun (: I had the Party Room!

However we did see some "different" things...such as 2 men kiss and a women being "raped"....quite different.

Ahhh well (:

I am so amazed by the things that I learned in the hair department this weekend....I will learn how to do my hair (:

Happy Birthday Sweetheart (:

Adventures in Motion (:

Well I haven't blogged in awhile, ah well I wouldn't say I'm a hard core blogger. I just do it on a whim sometimes.

Well the liberation that I previously felt and the fight that happened got resolved so that's good (:

I got a role in the play "Our Town"- I'm a "Cartwright Interest and a towns person. Which isn't bad, I get to act and still be the head of the make-up crew (:

The worries I felt are no more, I have found a new way to express my feelings to my boyfriend when I don't feel like I can say that I'm out loud and express them clearly. Somehow writing helps me organize my thoughts and I can say how I feel clearly (:

SETC is this weekend (: